It’s been a hot minute since I wrote something on my blog. Truth is, the past 6 months have been a total whirlwind for me. Everything has happened incredibly fast that there’s been times where I have burned out and been completely overwhelmed. But wait a sec….how have we got to the end of THE DECADE?!?! I can’t wrap my head around it.
If there’s anything that I’ve learned from this year it’s patience, to slow down and to be grateful for the journey that I’m on.
I wrote my last blog in the Spring of this year. I was living back home in Leicester; was in a job I loved and had a good set of friends around me. I was happy and I was comfortable. But there was just something that wasn’t sitting right with me. I had moved back to Leicester (from London) for 3 years and knew it’s not a place I wanted to be in at this moment of my life. Especially when I’m pushing my career and wanted to push more financially. I knew I had to move back to London for this to happen. However, I didn’t anticipate it to happen so quickly.Come March, me and my partner got back to together and decided that we’re both done with living in Leicester. There was no excitement to being in Leicester and we both knew that our careers will go a lot further in a bigger city. Plus we wanted to start fresh, in a new environment, create something of our own. In June we both moved in together in Woking, Surrey. A place where we knew no one, but he landed an amazing job at McLaren and I had landed a job in the city less than 1 hour away. So our lives living together started.
I left my job in Leicester that I was happy in, doing really well in and was surrounded by some fantastic people, to go to a job a tech start-up! What was I doing?!?! Leaving somewhere I was comfortable in and was secure! The pressure and risk combined into one, going to a start-up with very less security and a big step up in my career was one that was psyching my anxiety out. However, what kept me going was 1 – I know my industry, which made me confident and 2 – I had Ashley supporting me all the way always telling me I can do it and to believe in myself, but the pressure was ON! I had to make sure I made this job work, as typically in start-ups you could be let go anytime – without any prior warning!!! At times, I am my own worse enemy. I’m a constant over achiever therefore, always put way too much pressure on myself to get certain goals done which sometimes ends up burning me out and having a break down.
Anyways a few months down, I’m smashing my role as Head of People & Talent. Ashley and I are adjusting/getting used to each other’s habits and learning even more about each other. We’re having BBQs every weekend with our new friends. Exploring new locations down south – basically just living our lives and having a lot of fun.
Until we came home one night to find out that our housemates we’re being deported back to Brazil!!! This came as such a shock as the couple had become our little family in Woking and are some of the nicest people we have met. A few weeks later once they had made it home to Brazil, we learned that one of our friends had passed away in a car accident. And a few weeks after that my mum’s mental health had completely relapsed. So there was A LOT to take on whilst under the pressure to hit deadlines at work. Everything was happening at 100 miles per hour and I crashed. I crashed badly!!! But this isn’t something I’m ashamed of. Do I regret not being able to handle things differently? Maybe? But if I hadn’t I probably would’ve kept going and would have preferred it to happen sooner than later. It taught me to stop. Slow down. Look around. Take time for myself and be grateful for the journey I’m on. I’m a huge believe of The Secret. Therefore, whatever you put out there, it’ll happen – when it’s meant to happen.
Anyways…6 months now on, as we head into a new year, I’m looking forward to 2020!
Here are some of the things I’ve been grateful for this year:
- My new job and great co-workers
- Getting my second qualification whilst working full time
- A supportive partner, who’s always making me laugh and annoying me at the same time!
- A family that loves me unconditionally – I honestly don’t know where I’d be without them
- My amazingly supportive friends
- Having a roof over my head
- The places I have been able to visit and check off my travel list
- Having a flipping savings account